Faith Trust Believe
keys to your hurt
keys to a woman
medium to a few processes
path to another
but it all spells the same name
the name above all names
the one that sits on high throne
the verdict is true
he is in you and me
he is the Lord, God, JESUS CHRIST!

DIONELdesuzer
17goingon18
Fairfiel year5A`07
100290
MFH




To BE Bought

Adidas Backpack
Adidas shoebag
Adidas coloured Street Soccer shoe
Adidad Polo Tee
Aldo Black leather shoe
Aldo T top white leather shoe
Aldo White shoes
Another Nike Dunk
BIBLE! MORE& MORE!
Converse torn sneakers
Clay Aiken's new CD
Deuter BackPack for school
Gap Stained Blue Jeans
Gap Light Tee
Gap Polo Tee
Havainas Trecking (red)
Havainas Trecking (white/glod)
IPOD Nano
Le Qau Sportif white/green sling
Levis Polo T
Levis Stained Blue Jeans
Mission Trip'06
Mission Trip'07
Man Studio silver shirt
Manstudio strippled Pants
N level 7pts
Nike gold print tshirt
O level 8pts!
Quicksilver Jeans
QuickSilver Slippers
Sony cybershot K800i
Stained Blue Levis Jeans
Throw my sis a surprise party!
Topman BlackBlue strippled Pants
Topman Grey Strippled Pants
Topman Black Jeans
Topman Blue Labeled Jeans
Topman Brown Polo TEE
Topman Light TEE
That TopMan shirt
That OP t-shirt
That OP slacks
That TopMan shirt
That Boardshort
Volcom & Ripcurl T-shirt
Volcom Walet
Volcom Slippers
Zara Leather Belt

-2:35 AM

hey ppl!
i've moved on to xanga!
you can view my bloggings there!

add: www.xanga.com/desuzer


-4:45 PM

உன்னால் முடியும் தம்பி!
என்ற வாக்கியம் ஒரு மாணவனின் வாழ்க்கையை
மாற்ற முடியுமா?


-6:10 PM

> Hero - Diana Ros

SYF DRAMA
oh boy do i even have to like start on it? its like a whole freaking mess! marc is out of SYF due to disciplinary case, no one to filll his role, feng yuan and me undersudy for all 3 roles, feng yuan then takes my role as tybalt, and i finally end up as romeo! now tell me how sucky can that be? huh? huh? like oh my goodness! SYF is like 5th april! and like how many sessions do we have left? -erm you dont actually have to count, its a metephor. and how am i suppose to fall in love with jaime? i mean of no offence to her la, like love needs time to grow! i can force it out! i mean even when in theatre or drama, love needs to grow! i cant be a "boom! there you go love!" thing. i mean of all the hopes to even get a gold? i think we dont even need to talk about getting a gold with honours! buttcrack!


-4:55 PM

> wait a min - PCD
(heart accelerating, up beating, hiping hopping hit!)


I was rather on the verge to close down my blog as i merely blogged resently. To be exect, my last post was december 7th! What a i laugh i'm having! Its a whole new year and before you could say en-cy-clo-pe-dia, march is already here, and to give situation a boost, there are only 2 remaining school days left before we head on to march holidays. Should be excited? or is it going to fly off like any other passer by wind? - i rather not take any choice. Last week was a wonderful week, but this week has been thus far rather interesting i must say. Its like what they call, a cup full of wanting all good + 3 tablespoon of obstacles + 2 tablespoon of blessing + 2 tablespoon of happiness + 4 teaspoon of emosim + 1 tablespoon of sadness + 5 tablespoon of unvarifield/confused questions + 1 teaspoon of bad luck + 1 tablespoon of good luck, makes your week, woah astonishing.

"Its really not about whether you are right, or whether i get the last say, or whether you do everything or run everything, or i dont do anything, but basically what really matters is that you've got to realise that everyone plays a part and one doesn't just have to be a thorn among the "roses" to be underlined as the "undignified" one. If that has to be, biasness is basically what you call it. One is not there to pick on you, but there to guide you, viceversal. Maybe its redandon that i sepaking about this here? but maybe the intention is met?" haha!

* school is ending
* Romp II is coming
* time to reax
x my eye is swollen!
* Firhad is going on tuesday!
x my eye is so irritaing! dang!


-10:31 PM




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-11:34 PM

I thought of dying
gazing into the black, seductive ice water
so glassy and so tranquil
I thought of dying
but in my place
Death's bony embrace
clutched listless children
gnawed by hunger;
prisoners on death row
detritus of their own childhoods;
poor shepherds grazing blunt-toothed animals
on landmined hillsides

I thought of dying,
to throw myself away
so much landfill
If it's no use to me
I could give it
I can holler with my lungs
at injustice
join hands in protest
at brutality
I realized that I had long been dead
but I could choose instead
to reawake
and be alive for them


-5:15 PM

When it rains
The soft grey sky
Drifts to the ground
Brown rivulets
Trickle away
Trickle away
Washing sadness down
Weather vanes
Weep and turn
Weep and turn
Forgetting in the damp and grey
That by and by
The sun will shine
Sun will shine
By and by
The sun will shine.


-11:58 PM

>i don't care - Ricky Martin


natalie looks funny! haha


drama twits!


taoisim?

wake up rather early without reason
ordered macs sausage mcMuffin!
was rather dazing the morning
was suppose to go to work but
i didnt due to drama.

went to meet my mum before drama
she is seriously damn nice at times
then natalie called me sayin
"drama is @ 2pm not 3"
!@#$%^&*
me and nathaniel were late
we reached at like 2.45pm

drama was okay i guess
was abit lost and stale
guess its because i was MIA!
due to the exams la.
well only 10 ppl will be in SYF!
hope i get my chance
we did many interesting things
i learnt a few things though

after drama went to essential brew
its been ages since i gone there
but no good comments either
the waitress called us the
"chicken wing club ppl!"
wth! and the chicken wing
changed in taste i guess as it ******!
crapped and camwhored alot!
hahaha

left them and went to office
to clear afew stuff . argh!
tml theres work and i have
to like plan lesson! so boring!
BOOO! oh wells.
haha weijie and elis wants a job!
and now i am like their agent?
lol! hahaha. off i go!


-11:58 PM

"Stand By Me" Nothing's impossible Nothing's unreachable When I am weary You make me stronger This love is beautiful So unforgettable I feel no winter cold When we're together When we're together Will you stand by me Hold on and never let me go Will you stand by me With you I know I belong When the story gets told When day turns into night I look into your eyes I see my future now All the world and its wonder This love wont fade away And through the hardest days I'll never question us You are the reason My only reason Will you stand by me Hold on and never let me go Will you stand by me With you I know I belong When the story gets told I am blessed To find what I need In a world loosing hope You're my only believe You make things right Everytime after time Will you stand by me Hold on and never let me go Will you stand by me With you I know I belong When the story gets told Stand by me No more darling I want you by my side I want you hear with me baby it just shows how much you mean to me and i'll never let you go. ilu;

-12:30 PM




-10:15 PM

> Me & You - Cassie

chinatown
Went to chinatown with jeremy, erin and chulien today! haha. It was rather darn funny today! The girls actually wanted to eat Tim Sam, so we went to some so called high class restaurant! haha but i actually went all the way to china town to just drink soya bean and eat peanuts! chulien kept laughing at me! thanks ah! Cause i wont eat Tim Sams obviously! haha. But i did the ordering! i ordered many nice things accept for one damn shit thing. Some veggie thing. the waitress actually called it "Mr Choy's balls!" haha! No Kidding! haha! it was darn funny! after that we headed to the mrt. on the way we came across a shop which is irnically named "home of condoms" haha! there were like tonnes of sexual usage items! haha mand masturbaters! and woman vibraters! hahaha not forgetting Lepard patches! aka chulien's fave!

habourfront
we headed to vivo city later on. boy was it huge! it took us almost half an hour to find the cineplex! haha dAMN HUGH! with so many boutiques! yay shopping hit list! haha. me and chulien were just having lots of comedical fun! while jeremy and erin were..... hahahaha! lol! we went to watch "Scoop!" rather exhillerating! "a perfect man, a perfect story, a perfect murder!" hahaha its comedy! romance! and murder! out of point right? but it all came together someone! there was some terror card killer who was actually darn handsome from what chulien said! ahaha. play safe! but i think they sped tooo much money or somthing the movie ws splendid but the ending sucked! and sydney my man died! darn it! haha. anyway then after that wen to have Macs with chulien and trained home!
CHULIEN WORE SKIRT TODAY! woah! =)


-9:15 PM

> No Promises - Shayne Ward


[thats chicken wing club]
during lentern festival 2006

N Levels
i just finished my N lvls not long ago. been a rough rocky road all the way, but the Lord abundant blessing has always been upon me. a whole years bullshit is down to one week. the pressure sure was on. but i guess now theres nothing much left to do but o hold and practice strong faith in Jesus. Like he said "you rather believe your friends who think they know the answer, or me who knows truth?" i still believe in God for good results. amen!

Life
well its seriously a rocky road so far but i love it as everysingle step i take, i take it in the Lord will. Its really amazing to see how much i have grown in the LORD. He has certainly taugh me alot and i am till learning. Of cause all this is thanks to Jeremy of cause for making me remember that Jesus is always there for me. Its seriously a new experience and its rather rewarding. He is blessed me in many issues and i am tremendously Glad! -he is my way, my truth, and my life;

well been reflecting alot these few days. Many issues just kept me concern over and many made me realise reality. i just realise how many cliques i have just gotten myself into. 'DEH? SEVEN? CLIP 5? High13?' and it just gets going on. i just really realise how much i have isolated my self from others and just being so focused on just a clique. I face many consequences due to this and it just made to conclude to this - "it really depicts where i belong" where i belong is really a question mark '?' God has set us free and he has given us liberation but yet man choose to isolate himself and stay at darkness. Cliques are the most fun things trust me! we have the greates time. Just like my mp4! i love thme to bits! we always have great times. But i realise these guys are more then just a clique, to be honest we are a family. but the thing that keeps us on is that we often have gaps and own times when keeps us together still. just today morning someone asked me "isn't this clique important to you?" in my heart i just replied i'm tring to go far away from it. -liberation is a choice, don't jail yourself;




-10:12 PM

> when you believe - Mariah Carrie& Whitney Husten

its been quite a while since i blogged here! and hey i'm back! amen! hahaha
its been a pretty wild ride and tough days as exams head near
but boy am i loving it! hahahah
those pictures werer just recent mugging days.
i'll blog soon!

tml Nlvl Tamil!
-doing it by Faith!-
-Praise God!-

-10:30 PM

> welcome to my life - simple plan

wednesday
mdm lim was absent today. so nobody satyed back for art. was a tamil class day so pretty boring. did a test at tamil class. i was like so sleepy!

thursday
I'VE GOT MY N80!
Photo taking today! pretty cool. i got demoted to the second row middle. abit funny! PE lessons were fun today. haha. well i guess i am stuck in the middle in this competition. lets just pay for fun yeahh. chemistry was fun. we played with the balls again. "vic your balls are running away!" haha. physics remidial was fun! drama photo taking was fun - i've learn to ease down on that;

Friday
Happy Birthday my cute niece!
free period ran fast! chemistry was fun with balls again! "vic you're loosing your balls!" english was a bore! Humanities was cool. we watched some vaulgar movie! "eeww farkqweh!" haha. after school went to catch pirates of the caribbean. pretty cool movie. but the ending seems unfinished.




-9:50 PM

> ridin' dirty - chamillionaire

i was in school darn early again! cause i met abel and huishi early! he and his "peisu mike!" haha. carmelle made a huge statement by saying "all boys are bustards! you only hurt the girls feelings!" haha well i dont really blame her. i guess there are some who play with girl's heart. chapel was great. some youth pastor came. something i can really learn from. (godididraisemyhandinmahheart!) sorry! lessons were pretty okay. surprise maths test. crappy fenny again during history! haha. english was okay too. after school went to do art. art is damn fun now adays! yay! then went to JP with nathaniel and dehua. nat changed his wallet. dehua wanted to buy a GUNDAM? and boy is her frikleminded! rawr! ate subway for dinner. and cabbed home. i'm getting my N80 on thursday evening! finally! thanks you GOD! and MUM!

this 'special BAG' has been sitting in my room for months and i am not the owner! its for someone? haha but i just haven't found the right time to hand it over. as the arrival of the back came inbetween bad atmosphere. so it has gone through struggles to get to its owner but till now mission failed. but whenever the eyes get caught by it, questions start to shoot out. the problems comes when i cant answer them. like i said. the heart is still the same. maybe its time to be less oblivious? "i still.." ;

dude, i didn't want to ask you anything today as i just left it to you to open up. i think i know whats going on. well its was good to see you happy today! haha DANDUNG BOY SMILED! hahaha. lol thats the way man. kick off your day with a smile. and dont worry about last min pangseh'ers. there are many in life! haha.

i've got to hit my books liao. must get to pace this week. and start chionging liao! i'm starting to love art! i just love crossing out my wishlists! yay!

//"i still.."


-10:00 PM

> For you i will - Teddy Geiger

Mrs CHNG leaves in 5hrs!
MRS CHNG! have a safe trip yeah! really going to miss you! take care!

today i woke up early and went to school early. as usual moody morning. rushed my maths although she never checked but at least i tried. my new DM is a poor announcer! maths was okay although it was dry. i was actually doing my work. chemistry was productive! i think sitting infront helped me alot! thanks ms thio? recess was okay. art was productive too! natalie was going crazy! haha but today art was fun. although something happened later. LS was boring. no comments! met huishi and chulien for dinner. DeliFrance? haha yeah but yet huishi kept complaining! took a bus home.

reflections/
its really funny how just one event can cause an erase of someone. hmm. little did i know that the thought and treasuring over someone was that low that that someone could be erased? i know i have right to say must or not but i guess when the eyes do catch the fact, it does witness a huge sense of tension that breaks out to a water fall. the heart is still the same and the thought is still clear its only a matter of fact that you still dont get the picture.

fenny! relax dear honey! i know you were sad and stuff. but yeah. you are really good. and comparing to others you are really fast and efficient too. thats why she kind of let you independently. dont take it to heart yeah? it only proved how good you are! so smile and a BIG BIG SMILE!

and boy do i think you would think i forgot you! dude i would never! i know you have been down the whole day. and i know there is something going on in you man. but yeah. it really hurts that i cant be much of a help. but dude i really hope you get better. as i feel very wierd to see you like this. i guess it kinda hurts. (kaaranum naana?) thats in my heart. well hope to see you happy again! and dude rmb i am here! =)

lastly. i told char just now how i missed someone's crackingself and the funny times we had. haha. lol you are still the best when it comes fun and laughter and jokes! haha but where you are now is the safe distance. but it can be broken!?!?!?!

// i<3you;


-9:50 PM

> Lord we delight in your name - Hill Songs

woke up early to prepare for sundays school. as i slept the last night after talking with nathaniel. well dad drove us to church. todays service was good. i was really blessed. i poured out many things sang my heart out to God. yeahh. i guess its nothing much but i know the Lord hears. today i was teaching the kids. it was kinda hard as their attention spent was low. but yet it was really fun. being in the sundays school really makes time fly. mingled around after church and dad drove us back home.

went home moody. no idea why. i went to sleep. then i woke up and watch tv. then went to sleep again. then i was bored so i went out. went to meet someone and went to JP. i know i'm nuts! haha. went deposit something! YAY! and went to check out my N80! and boy is it sexy! haha. its sells at $989. after trade in its at $889. what abomb yet i'm gooing to buy! thanks to mummy! i was in JP at 8pm and Vic was there at 9pm but we did not meet. lol. came home with KFC but i was not hungry. so i ate because i was bored? lol! going to bed early.

// well its still an 'i do!' hahaha! =)


-11:59 PM

> here with out you - 3 doors down

woke up late today to rushed from home to school in a cab. but actually the uncle drove fast that i became early! hahaha. well painted my droplet number one today finish. good but slow accomplishment. had loads of fun too. scorpion bought us chocolate waffles. mdm lim's usual pet talks. sec 4NA's attendace today was damn good! all came except faris!. i guess because i said mdm lim will complain to the principle! but actually she is out of town! was listening to derricks indian songs! natalie painted a sports bra outline on eunice chan! haha so funny! paint fight again!

after art went FMPS for the MOE shit thing. but the art exibhition was good! missed the primary school good food! the aunty remembers me! bought 2 ice cream from Mrs Habeeb! my Martin House teacher! haha. later went home with eunice and natalie. nat was going town to meet charmaine. enunice and me went to JP to watch movie. scary movie 4! but she was underage? haha so the damn aunty said NO! hahaha so we went home.

at night went for a wedding. then i went to town at 12 am in the mornign with my cousins! elder ones la. we went to to club cum Pub - Liquid Room. was pretty okay. had a few drinks. i manage to damn at the dance floor. was okay. came back home at 2.30am. now talking to shihan waiting for the match! well i want to say i love you! ( not reffering to shihan!)


-1:33 AM

I AM AWAKE AT THIS UNGAWDLY HOUR!
poooooo!!
a few hours before the world cuup 3rd and 4th placing
Germany vs Portugal
although i don't support any
all the way GERMANY! (although i cursed you!)
muahahahahahahah!


-9:05 PM

> rise and fall - craig david

what a title to give my post eh! haha well today was normal day. nothing much of a huha! wenhao laffyette and me got a hair cut. laffyette's was okay la. better then usual. at least there was slight straight hair that was visible! me and wenhao went to our usual shop! haha. he was really on and shaved bald with tiny hair left! he looks kind of like a small baby! haha. i've got not much of a change. something like faris hair but with adjustments. jeremy and abel kept saying it was damn cool! haha went home and dyed my hair black brown but no difference!

today 4D led the chapel. i guess they al really put in alot of effort. although the technical errors pulled them down. well done Norman! well my N level oral examination is tomorrow. not really nervous but do feel the slight heat! was suppose to go eat with jeremy in swensons but had tution! sorry dude! sorry to huishi and chulien too! haha.

random
and its still a i do, i hear 'shes expecting you' but mind runs over it as a lie but yet heart stands strong

snaps!

we were dancing high school musical that day!


-10:37 PM

> buttons -PCD

happy youthday to all youths!
(like me!)

haha. met dehua and wenhao in the morning at bugis. wen hao and me bought a zinc bag each. wenhao bought a brown leather one and i bought a zinc leather plastic. dehua on the other hand bought a zinc wallet. was a funny thing that he bought a wallet from there. ate long john silver. met nathenial and cabbed down to town.

at town met glenn, vic and tian hang. wen to long john silver again as glenn was hungry. then went to apple centre. i saw jamie yeo AGAIN! haha. the guys went to nike boothic as i went to meet jeremy and erin. then we went to book tickets for superman returns. saw many fairsian from all levels! haha.

later we all went to kpool and play pool! (abit obvious!) but i was not feeling well dang so i did not play. while the guys were playing me erin and tian hang went to tcc to dine. i had a choco mint frappo and a dark devotion while erin and tian hand had some strawberry thing that tasted like antibiotics! haha. tian hang was damn funny! he was like "can i take the whole mug of sugar home!" hahaha.

erin and tainhang went up to kpool. i went down to meet fenny huishi and chulien. man the elevators at cine is darn slow! hahaha. high five fenny and me were in birkenstocks! haha. huishi got her power chain redone! haha we went to get some snacks for the movie and went in. the movie was great. some said boring but really an inspirational movie. dang i actually heard a couple kissing behind me during the movie! haha. in the movie superman actually will have a fake death. it was cold and i got a cold so i sniffed and huishi thought i was crying! haha and said "superman die, DIONEL CRY!" haha.

after the movie went to have dinner at swensons. nathaniel left with kevin ban! (ban got sore throat!) haha. there were like 11 of us so we had to wait long for our seats. i called the doorman robeto carlos! haha and he was darn happy la! hahaha. but we had a fun time waiting as we were like talking crap and all! haha. finally got to seat down! but we were rushing through the food as it was getting late! finally cabbed home with huishi chulien and vic. (fenny cabbed home alone as dehua pangseh!) haha well i had fun today! thanks guys!


-9:35 PM

i love you, BEBAYE!


-11:55 PM

> Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield

AI MEI is in town! haha NO! its yang chen ling. ai mei is her song. but i kept calling her ai mei! haha. we to see her at the autograph session at Bugis with vic, chulien and huishi. haha. we were there supricingly early. at that time there was only 2 rows. so Vic said "aiya she not popular la!" haha. so we went to eat lunch at Pasta Mania! i used to love to dine there. haha. then we went walking. took neoprint out of the blues. haha. then walk around aimlessly. haha. then when we came out the whole damn ground floor was crowded! we could barely see anything. so we sat at starbacks ( next to the stage) and we waiting for the people to scream(sign that tells you the star is here) haha.

cabbed down to esplanade. ate chocolate coated strawberries and marshmellos! yum! then went down to the river side. on the way we saw a guy painting on the floor!


seems like what mdm lim showed us in class!


thats not a real drain! its drawn! FTW YO!

so we walked tothe river side and sat there. i always loved nice sea view and relaxing sky lines! haha but i guess i was the only one. haha huishi wanted to go Kbox. Chulien wanted to eat! haha and vic was bored! darn! haha


if you look closely, theres anextra head popping out at the top! WTH!


VDHC! aka the production (s)crew! haha

after that went walking aimlessly again. then we came to this tunnel and we did our production! hahaha. really funny one. since we came out to watch yang chen ling we performed her song!